Changing Mask...

What a surprise, my sis just have her exam over, and she planning to bring me along the redbox to sing k? What is the reason? My sis just got 2 20 ringgit discount coupon from magazine. No wonder she is so generous today =.=. O well, i also need something to express my feelings anywhere, so i think i will just go with my sis then. We are so nervous, as we havent sing song together since january, so we just flash into the room, ignoring the waiters and start singing...CRAZILY!!! Wow!!! There is a lot of nice song to be sang, me and my sis kept singing, and time flew so fast, we did not even realize it has pass 5 hours, and yet we havent finish all the song we wanted to sing. Arr, next time come again, after i exam of course!!! But the thing is, i dont know why, today i kept singing until all my voice has make mistakes. And i starting to lost the feeling of singing songs...why ar, the last time i sing song, "Bei Pan" , "chun ni", "jin jin de" i almost cry... and now when i sing those songs again, i not even sob, i laugh =.=.

I wonder, with the course of time, i begin to get lose the feeling i use to have in the past. Now i recall it, i not even cried when i watch a sad movie ( the the lover of a perfect boyfriend die in the scene). Am i starting to lose grip on all my emotions? Or i starting to develop cruelness in order to survive in my studies.... I believe that, besides me, everyone is starting to change, the one who we get use to know, even ourselves, is no longer the person who used to be....Is just like everyone have just take off thier old fashion masks, and replace it with a brand new one. And now, the mask which has written, be cruel to urself, i wiling to wear it. The effect of those words still ringing in my head, and the power of the song still surrounding me. Just like telling me, even i sacrifice all the things, i will get back what i belong to eventually.....

My friend told me that i am a very hardworking person? Is it? I never thought so, i am just afraid to lose all the things again. Just like what people used to say, u will know how valuable a thing are when u actually lost it, now the effect is really powerful, but to be honest i really hope that this effect will pursuit me forever, at least with that, i will not stop improving myself anymore.

Although i seems like wearing a different mask right now, but when i met up with my old friend again, i seems to found myself again. I think, maybe they are such a important people for me, after all